Usawa no Midori-kun

i DO understand that there tends to be a BIT of sick stuff in this manga, but this manga has the BEST STORYLINE ON THE PLANET.*not gonna post any pics cuz it's troublesome and i need to go to skool. no time.*

talking about a countryside girl who lived with her mother, and father unknown. one summer, a guy named Hino Tsukasa went to this island for a vacation, and bumped into Midori. he then taught her how to play soccer. Tsukasa was a really nice person, and Midori is really cute. they had actually fallen 4 each other~~~~~ HE EVEN GAVE THE SOCCER TO HER B4 HE LEFT

but 4 years later, a Tokyo all boys skool came over, and Tsukasa was on the team. Midori recognized him, and sed hi. then he invited her to the beach. they played a little soccer, and then he kissed her, and then they(THEY DON'T SHOW OK??). later on, she finds out that it was actually a bet, and she got flushed, and realized how much he changed in these past 4 years. he's now nothing but a cold, non-ever-smiling type.

Midori was determined to go after him to Tokyo, pretend to b a boy in the neighboring skool of Tsukasa's, to beat him up.

there r a BIT just a BIT so bear with that BIT k??

Ladies and Gentlemen...Shounen Onmyouji

it's so sad... at the end... Masahiro had to kill Mokkun (he was possesed) or else he'd destroy the earth... and now that he killed Mokkun, his very important person, he is crying over him. He gives his life for Mokkun, but he was stopped on the way to death, by someone who died a long time ago. Masahiro didn't wanna die, because he was only a kid, inexperienced in life. Right before he crossed the lake to death, a lady asked him to sit next to her. she asked him: wat r u doing here? rn't u too young to cross the river?

him: there's a wish i wanted fullfilled no matter wat. and if i cross the river, it'll b granted. (gloomily throut the the entire thing)

her: but it seems there's sum burden left in ur heart...

him: i dun want to make ppl sad anymore... so i thought that i'd make everyone forget about me... it's my grandfather's specialty, so i pleaded him (forced a tiny smile) to erase memories of me from everybody

her: so u came here first, before your grandfather... i also came here first... before the person that i love. (Masahiro looks REALLY sad now) so i thot i'd stay here, instead of crossing. if the person that i love catches up with me, he might be mad, and say 'y did u go first'.

him: (clenches his pants, looking half sad half mad.)

her: (patting his shoulder, trying to comfort him) just as i thot... it's too soon for you to b here. hey, didn't u notice that there's sumthing very precious inside here? (lays her hand on his chest)

him: *huh* (grabs the item outta his shirt that hangs like a necklace on his neck) (opens his hand) (sees the yew scent pack that Akiko gave him, but had given back before he left) i thought that i left it behind...(teary *A BIT*)

her: that heart always yearns for u. r u gonna leave them all?

him: (grasps onto the pack hardly) (getting teary) (cries)

her: (hugs him to comfort him) how foolish, childrens don't hav to surpress their need to cry.

he: (continues crying)

her: how can he do such an unbearable thing to a child? (hugs him tighter) (pats him) let's go

him: (tries to stop crying)

her: now, go back. (points towards the light where he came from)

him: (looks at it)

both: (gets up)

her: i will send u back.

him: (starts walking back)

her: now go home, Masahiro...

him: *shocked* (looks back) how do u know my name? who r u?

her: (starts fading) me? my name is Wakana. (disappears)

his grandfather, Abe no Seimei was holding onto Abe no Masahiro (Masahiro) the whole time thru this, thinking that he died. his grandfather is a famous onmyouji, and right now sent his young soul out to the battle, while his old original body is left in the house.
Seimei: (feels the wind) Wakana...
Wakana was his wife that died a long long time ago.


Now that he returned, that'll mean that no sacrafice, so no revival of Mokkun. Somehow, he was still revived, okay? But that's no good. Cuz now Mokkun is back to how he was like before he met Masahiro 10 years ago. Cold, mean, careless. He lost all him memories of everything that happened. And after Masahiro risked his life for Mokkun too!! He asked Kou, who's this kid? That really hurt. And so at the end, Masahiro and Mokkun had to start all over, although Mokkun seriously forgot all about everything. He didn't know that he forgot everything, because no one told him. He just thinks that: since i'm a god that Seimei had created, my job is to take care of this troublesome grandson of his, rite? and he just forgot all that they had gone thru.

BEST thing is that Masahiro FINALLY ended up with the imperial princess, and the daughter of the minister of the left. they finally had the dreams fulfilled, to watch the fireflies together in summer, but the new Mokkun with that.

HIGHLY RECOMMENED anime. it's bloody, but funny, adventerous, and hot guys (YES!!).

Abe no Masahiro MALE (above)

Fujiwara no Akiko (forgot her last name(beside)

part of a few eps b4 the last, he hands over the yew pack to Akiko gave him (he always added his little spiritual power before he gave it back) because he knew that he would die in the last battle. Akiko refused to take it but when he told her, "i want u to hav it", and hugged her for the first and last time (or so he thot),
she just gave in.

Mokkun is in his false form, as a mononoke. he and Masahiro had known each other for a very long time, until one day, his grandfather sealed up Masahiro's ability to see mononoke's and god's. Masahiro was the first to accept Mokkun as a normal being. Mokkun is a nickname made by Masahiro.

That is Mokkun's real form. real name is Guren. also known as Touda. he is a fire user, and has nearly killed his master and creator, Seimei, because he was possesed, again, by Seimei's best friend.

Animes and Mangas

i hav around 30 animes to watch. around 20 put on hold. but none seem to take my interest T.T let's just hope that Shounen Onmyouji is better than anything of those 50 animes. looking 4 good animes, still.... sigh... a few that i've put on hold:
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles
Code Geass
Bokura Ga Ita
Axis Powers Hetalia
Tora Dora
DN Angel
Hell Girl
Full Moon wo Sagashite
Ah! My Goddess
Haruhi Suzumiya
etc . (omg these r kinda boring... I LIKE STORYLINED ANIMES) (AND hot guys...) (NARUTO and BLEACH were exceptional)
Like:
07 Ghost
Hagane no Rekinjutsushi (kinda... but i like animes that r interesting... THIS ROCKZ)
Gakuen Alice
Jyu-Oh-Sei (first ep was boring...)
GUNDAM SEED AND SEED DESTINY and 00
Dragon Drive
Fate/Stay Night
etc.

3 mangas to read. 8 put on hold. the ones that REALLY take my interest r stuff like:
Kaichou wa Maid-sama
Gakuen Alice
Hangane no Rekinjutsushi (Fullmetal Alchemist)
Kitchen Princess
ALL ONESHOTS THAT CONTAIN NO YAOI FAV ONESHOT: BET!!
NARUTO
Bleach
etc.

ANIMES / MANGAS KINDA LIKE THOSE THAT R HIGHLY RECOMMENED. PLZ TELL ME

arigato~~~ hohoho~~

La lala~~

The earth is rotating~ I feel so sick. Hohoho~~ Look mom!! That's 12 ducks around my head! Look! one has a pimple!! hahahahahahaha!! WOAH. look! one's holding a TV! Bwa hahahahahahaha!! wha-? look!! it's Prince Charming!! what? he's all swollen up!! hahahaha!! Prince Dumpling!! AHH!!! SO WINDY!!!! i hate it when the earth rotates. can't it just stop 4 a sec? gosh... omg! OMG!!! THE EARTH IS TURNING TOWARDS TO SUN!! i'm dragged to my corner!! BWA HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA!!! eh? look! 12 ducks dancing around my head again!! 12 stars too!! oh look! it's Utada Hikaru with a pimple on her eyelid!! hahahahaaha! oh look!! it's my Gundam with a broken antenna...

THANKS JULIA~

thanks to JULIA, i got out of my sad mood, and INTO CHEERFUL~~~~~~~ yet, again. =.=" i'm so weird. don't ask how. i dunno. she was asking about manga, animes... sigh... manimes just make me too happy... they're my life~

Time

ppl, or mainly parents always say, "you've just wasted ur time reading ur manga, watching ur anime, doodling, etc." But they r rong. did u enjoy ur time reading, watching, and doodling? if u did, then u did not waste ur time. if u didn't watch, read, or doodle, would it still make u as happy as u r b4 u started? no. u wouldn't just all of a sudden be happy. and those joyfulness will stick with u, as ur memory, for as long as u can. but not all things r evadable. skool work, sumtimes studying, but try ur best to sumhow make it fun too. that'll make u a lot more cheerful person.

Dear Diary, Sorrow

May 5, 2009

I hate my mom too much for me to bear. IHMMTMFMTB. She said, he reason why i got into my beloved school, ever since K2, CAIS, is probably because of my sister's "cheerful" attitude towards the interview when she was small. Dear Diary, do u know how much that hurt me? it makes me sound so useless. Like a thousand needles down my throat! My sister is blessed with a gameboy and 5 gamepaks when she was 5, from my aunt, while i, who is 2 years younger, with 2 years smaller quantity of experience of life and drawing skills, finally beat my sister in drawing. i was really happy. But i had no reward. none like my sister's. I was only 6.

during summer, i scanned 3 times more photos than my sister. yet, all i got was a 200$ yugioh pack, while she got a 2000$ 16gb itouch.

when my sdad talks about logic, science, math, etc., he'd only talk about it with my sister. ok fine, then i invite myself. i asked him to repeat 1 sentence, just one, and he told me, "if you don't get it, then shoo. ur not old enough to understand anyways." Dear Diary, don't just look at my outter, cheerful self. I hav a sorrow background.

when i eat, no more than the quantity me dad allows, which is usually less than enough. I feel the same as before i ate. no more than 2 bites of snacks. When i'm on my 2 bite, he already starts mocking. But if i were my sister, he pretends he sees nothing.

when we're both in trouble, i get the harsher punishment. i get all the blame. thanks a lot.

Just as i get ungrounded, i get grounded again. just when do i get to use my computer publicly? my sister spends her entire day at her computer, yet nobody makes a sound. but if i were to do that, even i just 1/5 the time, i'd get grounded again.

"Enid, did you finish you're homework?" is wat they ask everyday. if i say i didn't, i get another grounding. if i were my sister, they'd just say, finish it.

I don't feel loved. Dear Diary, is it just me? because i don't feel like i'm being noticed by the world, like the world made a space just for me.

i'm crying as i write this, Diary. Love is not found in my vocabulary. my name is not carved on this planet. maybe Mars suits me better. There is no home i can return to, nobody there to wait for me, looking forward. Diary, you're my only life-long family member. I've been with u since grade 2, and till now, u still haven't left me. who could possibly be better than u? Even with this pen that i'm writing with, is half broken, and out of ink. Have u left me too, Lesley's given pen? Do you detest me so much?

I'm afraid of the outside world, the love sumtimes. u dunno when they're true or not. I'm afraid of being alone, while i am anyways, all the time. there's darkness surrounding me everywhere, nowhere for me to hide. this is freaky, Diary. won't you be there to help me?

my sister gets the bigger room, better view, better clothes, bigger and better food, tender punishments.

Diary, i wonder if this is the world's logic. that all bigger sisters r blessed more. if so, y has such a logic been created?

y am i so blessed with such a sustainable family, yet be cursed with the lonliness? i don't get y i'm so cursed. the only thing that possible ever happened to me in my life was meeting my friends. i don't think that "love" ever happens in my family. tho we're such an independant family, we lack at bonds.

May parents get into fights daily. it's almost like a routine. sometimes, worry over them getting divorced. i can't help but think that. they complain to me about each other. i thought they were supposed to be one? y rn't they?

my grandma is so nice to me, but she no longer wants to butt into my buissness. this is half my fault. I went to see the physiotherapist one day, and he gave me a little excercise to help me. my grandma gave me a serious look. i didn't like it. so i told her not to butt in, and til now, she still couldn't forget.

my sister, tho i hate her, she might as well be my only blood-related half-reliable family member, though i still feel a big gap between us. as if she's from another planet, another world, apart from me.

My helper, i hate her most of the time. She is half reliable as well. i feel as tho she's my best family member, because she's the only one who cares. if she leaves, i wonder wat will happen to me...

Don't ppl live by leaning on their family? borrowing their shoulders for help? y don't i feel any bars, waiting for me up ahead, looking forward to me approaching? y am i so blessed, yet so cursed? people out there with perfext bond-tied family, feel blessed. not every one lives a perfectly fine life like you. i envy Vivienne, having such a nice sister, comical mom, funky dad, nice family. Lesley, for having such an obedient brother, and caring mother. Lesley, even when u were mean to your mother, she didn't hate you, and talk less to u. she blessed u more than anything, knowing that u'll need it. but i didn't experience anything like this in my life. we r a loveless, bondless family. there's no love existing. i feel so cold at home. i want some warmth. but that is impossible with wat my home is like, because there's no love, so there's no warmth.

if my friends and i seperate one day, i seriously wonder wat will happen to me? i don't like meeting new friends. i don't think that any will be as good as the ones i hav beside me rite now. i'll just a movable crap, with no goals to achieve, no meaning in life, struggling to live. if there is no soul in the crust, there is no meaning to life. only sorrow will remain. this will not go away no matter how hard i try. it's already printed over and over again in my brain. they'll stay with me forever.

but i don't wish for these happy and sad memories to leave, because i need them to survive, and live my life down. they've already happened, so i can't neglect its existence. in any way, if they leave me, they would not make the "original" Enid. I'd just be a perfect life-filled Enid, with no meaning in life. if sadness exists, then i would learn from it, and set it as my goal to change it. if it doesn't exist, i'm not human. all human has experienced sadness. maybe little sadness, maybe major sadness. but in any way, it's still sadness.